“Something happens when you feel ownership. You no longer act like a spectator or consumer, because you’re an owner. Faith is at it’s best when it’s that way too. It’s best lived when it’s owned.” -Bob Goff, Love Does
I couldn’t agree more with these words. This speaks of a life all-in; feet that have left the shore of what is comfortable, known, and predictable and embarked on a journey that is uncharted.
I’ve spent two amazing years in Southern California, and I cannot believe that God has steered my little ship, yet again, in a vastly different but incredible direction. In just two short weeks I will be moving to Chicago to finish a few post graduate credits for counseling, and partner with Moody Theological seminary to build their human trafficking program.
Although God’s fingerprints are all over this move, fear is not far away. As my friend Bianca always says, “we always fear what we don’t know”. And that is exactly it. Chicago holds a future unknown to me. There are no “handles” on the unknown–nothing to hinge our confidence upon. But God’s desire is that we would hinge the full weight of our hearts on Him. Our fears, desires, and anxieties would all find their rest in Him.
I am a proud owner of a faith in a loving and good God, and really, that is all I need. Faith enables me to be malleable in the hands of a never changing God. Faith also challenges me to avail myself to a God who is so worthy of my trust.
“Every good and perfect gift is from above, coming down from the Father of the heavenly lights, who does not change like shifting shadows.”
So, I came to California as one person–literally not knowing a soul, and I will leave as so many more. If you allow yourself to be vulnerable in the process, it’s crazy how your heart will grow to fit the love for so many more people. Risky–yes. Worth it–absolutely.
I’ve learned that the unknown is not my business, it’s God’s. God is my business. To know Him, to seek Him, to be loved by Him, and to love those He places in my path. Like a good book that has been read a million times–tattered and worn–that is how our faith should look. It’s a faith well-lived, and well-loved. So, I am owning this faith of mine as I step from the sands of California, to the windy (and might I add FREEZING) streets of Chicago.
I am seriously indebted to every person whom God has placed on this path, and words would fail to express how grateful I am for each one of you. You have helped me trust God more deeply, and love this life more fully.
So, here I go–on another adventure of faith. I don’t know who I’ll meet, or what experiences I’ll have, but I believe that God has gone ahead of me, and will continue to walk beside me.